I suppose I'm bitter, or the closest thing to it. Jaded...anxious. I don't know what for. I can't decide if it's because someone wronged me or if I did this to myself. Things like work and school make waking up in the morning (specifically the former) exhausting. I don't like the person I'm becoming, I don't like my thoughts, I don't like my disregard. I don't like how I haven't been writing...what do I've got to hide anyway? I feel like I've lost myself? Am I simply just wandering?
And yet in the same breath, I can honestly say that I am the happiest that I've ever been. CJ has awoken emotions within me that I thought I was incapable of feeling ever again - good ones of course! When were together, it's just as easy as breathing. Weeks into dating CJ, I somehow knew that I loved him and that I wanted to spend the rest of my life telling him exactly that. I am slowly coming undone from this tight little ball that I've wound myself up in...it's a work in progress. Growing closer together with CJ is a rewarding incentive to continue laying down my walls. As far as my future goes, he is the only thing I am certain of these days.
But coming back to it, everything besides my relationship feels like chaos. I just wish I enjoyed the other faucets of my life a little bit more. I'm wanting change and yet the thought of change scares me. In light of all these things, I find encouragement in this:
"And he said to them, “Why are you afraid, O you of little faith?” Then he rose and rebuked the winds and the sea, and there was a great calm."
Matthew 8:26
Lord, calm my internal storm and restore my joy in you and in this life that I am called to live for you. Amen.
Hi, I recently saw on your IG that you posted a picture of an Arm Tatoo and some girl commented on it saying how "disgusting" tattoos are. I also so that you tried to tell her that not all people with tattoo want attention, but she said, "its a fact."
ReplyDeleteYou should say something to her. Who is she to tell you what to put on your body? I looked at her profile and exactly who is she to tell you (indirectly) not to be like the other "sheep"?
From having seen her pretentious and self-loving pictures on her IG, she is the "sheep" not you! From my observations (because I have followed your blogs/IG for a while), you are the more distinguished one here: you are a writer, you touch people by your words, I read everything you write. It shows that you are a critical thinker and seek to be more than these make-up thumping women who have nothing better to do than to post pictures of well, doing just that. She has absolutely no backbone and nothing to offer the world and yet she is going to tell you what you should or should not do with your body?
You need to comment back on that picture and make sure you stand up for yourself. People are watching and I would HATE to see that conversation end with, "its a fact, lol" coming from an otherwise incompetent person who has showed absolutely no self-worth besides being considered "sexy" due to her looks. You can literally use my words below or just rephrase them to tell it back to her:
If people who want tattoos are all begging for attention, what are you doing? What is the difference between makeup and tattoos? That you, who cakes on makeup everyday have the option of changing the colors and putting on new things everyday? That you have the option to buy more worthless products which are meant to make you "look good". If I get a tattoo, I want attention, on the basis that its permanent? At least I can commit to an ink that I don't have to change everyday. Make-up is ink too, its just removable. Now don't tell me that you don't post all these pictures of yourself because you don't want attention, you do. So, if I want to get a tattoo to enhance my appearance with an image which means a lot to me, you can be damn sure that its a lot more meaningful than you slapping on make-up on your face to tell the world how beautiful you are.
I am bothered. I am bothered that someone like you has to hear that. Stand up for what you want, you want a tattoo? GO GET ONE! I analyzed her profile and I analyzed yours, she has absolutely nothing more to offer anyone anything but a few tutorials of which colors are better to slap on your eyes, psshhh, big deal. At least with your social image, I can learn something (and I have). Please DO NOT let her dominate that conversation, please tell her off. You have followers you SEE how you stand up for what you believe in. This is not about a tattoo, this is about self-expression and don't let some pretentious, image obsessed bimbo tell you otherwise. Hold your own! You KNOW you posted that pic of the tat because you like it and even if you would never get one, don't ever let anyone, especially this nimwit tell you otherwise. I really hope you say something to her on that comment thread which we all can see, because she can piss off. With all that said, if she is your friend, I hope you are not offended. I have this innate desire to protect genuine people and you are one of them.
Thank you.
Dear anonymous thank you so much for your heart felt passion in wanting to protect me and my opinion that tattoos are AWESOME. Unfortunately (and I say unfortunately just because you wouldn't expect it) that girl is my sister and even if she is a very opinionated person, I still love and respect her opinions for her own. I'm not one to argue especially if she is being narrow minded. Personally, I love tattoos and plan on marrying my boyfriend who has a full sleeve and his entire back covered! The sad part about all of this is that my sister is forgetting that our father has tattoos as well. I wasn't expecting her to be so passionate but that's her I guess. I appreciate you for your encouragement in my writing and supporting me and my blogs! Thanks for taking the time to write me.
ReplyDeletePS and it's also very liberating to add that I already have a tattoo :-) and plan on getting more when the money is there ;)
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ReplyDeleteThat's awesome!!!! Please DO it. I know its your sister but PLEASE let her know that she is WRONG and you are awesome and no one can tell you otherwise. Opinions based on no backbone are sad opinions. If you father has a tattoo and you ask her if what she said about people with tattoos applies to him, she will say no, why? Because she knows him. This is ignorance. I really hope you say something to her. Or at least show her my message, I think that people need to be told of their ignorance.
Again, I love you and your words!!
PS: Does she know you have a tattoo and still called people who want tattoos attention wanting? That's ridiculous! What a sister :/
I just find it absolutely amazing how such incompetent self-obsessed people can get away with this. What has she done to prove herself to be unlike others to attack you for being a "sheep"?
ReplyDeleteShe lives in a fake world where lipsticks and eyeshadows mean everything. No structure, no self-thinking, no independent cognitive process, no backbone, no nothing.
I hope she is reading this and at the least thinking. She should be happy someone took the time to tell her this. Maybe it will make her think.
There is no arguing with my sister other than simply being the bigger person and letting her say whatever it is she wants to say. I know my opinion and am completely unswayed by hers. I already mentioned my opinion and that's all that matters. Whether or not she remembers that our father has tattoos it's whatever. Between her and I there is no talking about our dad. We hardly talk at all so I try not to spend the time we do talk arguing. You see what I'm saying? Anyways, thank you again for sharing your thoughts!
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